7 Days Down

I am starting to write this on 6.25 so that come Monday [day 7] I don't have a bleep ton to type. I will only update you on this once a week and no more than that. Here are my words written in my journal for the week, from paper to computer.

 

TEN REASONS: WHY

 

1. Pre Pregnancy Pants
2. To Be Healthy Again
3. Feel Better
4. Get In Shape
5. More Confidence
6. [not inserting this one]
7. Vacations [my goals]
8. For My Husband
9. For Oliver
10. Because I Have Too

"I use to be that way but now I'm different"
Today marks day one and I pray I can make it to 100!! I bought a scale [my enemy] today and when I went to weight myself it said that I had gained at least 15+ pounds from when I weighed myself at my in-laws. It frustrated me so much each day when I was weighing myself that it would depress me. How could two scales be so far off? I even put 15lbs weights on it and the scale said 10lbs... Who's scale is right? I might just have to weigh myself next time I take Oliver to the MW's for his 4month appointment.
99 days to go.

 

"Committed"
I should have gone for a walk today, but guess what? I didn't. I need to stop fighting this! JULIANA [yelling at myself] get off your ass off the chair and off of Photoshop and get outside while it's still summer. When people say hurtful things about the way you look or whatever you may think they are thinking... that should be motivation enough.

 

"Do it Anyway"
Last year when I started my weight lose journey I was ready. This time around I don't know why but I just am not ready.If I was I wouldn't be the weight I am today. Starting tomorrow I must be ready again.  I am taking facebook.com away from myself and I am going to throw myself into my photography instead and losing the weight.

 

Today is day one of no facebook.com and I took a 30 minute walk with Oliver. Its funny how a little sunshine and not getting on facebook.com can make my mood turn and get my outside. I have been working on my photography a lot today, getting it back up and making something out of it besides a hobby. I love photography and hope one day I can open my own studio in town.  I have a new favorite Greek Yogurt, its the Dannon brand. Its so creamy and I just eat the vanilla ones. I have one every day!
 Do you see how much less negative I write when the sun is shinning and I walk? Amazing huh.

 

Depression is a big part of my weight. I am not sure what it use to be, but honestly I gained  a lot of my weight after moving back from Santa Cruz. Ant it just keeps on building up. I was so happy when I lost 40lbs and then I went back into a depressed state and gained it all back.
The last 2 days have been sunny and you can tell my body loves Vit D. In Alaska you don't get to much of it. I walked both days that it was sunny and my mood was higher. So maybe I should start taking Vit D again on cloudy days.
I walked 2 miles today in 35min. I wasn't going to go that far but I pushed myself to do it. Tomorrow Oliver and I are going down town and earlier this evening I went to my brother's place to play some cards and I turned down Strawberry Cream Pie!

"Protect Your Program"
 I went out with some friends today and they brought bread to our table while we waited for out food... I didn't have any. When it came time to order I got a salad instead of fries and I took the top bun off my pulled pork sandwich.

"I Can Do It"
 I can do it because:

• I did it before
• I am strong
• I believe in myself

For my birthday this weekend I was given an Amazon gift card and I couldn't figure out what to get. Besides things for Oliver there is nothing that I really wanted for myself.  I looked for a NY Yankees outfit for Oliver and put that in the cart. Then I decided to start looking at dance work out videos, I found a ballet one that look amazing. But that one brought me to the one I bought. I bought Exhale: Core Fusion Collection and I can honestly say that I am really excited to start this! I think doing this and my walking is going to get me more motivated to this and lose the weight again!

93 Days To Go