Its about [PCOS]

I know my blog is suppose to be mainly about PCOS and losing weight, but it seems like its shifted more into my bitched about my life and how cute my little boy is. So I am taking the time tonight while my boys, yes boys...husband and baby are in bed early and I have a little time to myself. I should be folding cloth diapers that I just washed, those can wait.

I haven't been dealing with any PCOS symptoms since I was pregnant and all. But they are coming on back into my life and I [excuse my geeky term but] FRACKing hate them. While I was baking our son in my oven; I loved the fact that while showering I didn't pull half my hair out during shampoo and conditioning... its BACK! As I drive to work I pull my fingers through my hair and more comes out... then I have no where to put it.. so it ends up on floor[gross I know]. I wish my hair didn't fall out so darn much!

Another thing is...the weight. I can't seem to get into the same groove I found last January when I started losing weight in the first place. Back then I bribed myself with a new pair of UGGs at the end...which never happened because.. o that doesn't matter. I have a GAP gift card from Christmas sitting here looking at my like its the devil...taunting me..."you're never going to get new clothes in size 8 again are you, loser" its really sad. I do weigh less then I did when I started last year, but its still not what size I should be at. I think I lost all my 'its doesn't just happen over night mojo".

It's the damn sugar that gets me. It was so easy for me to give it up last time, but it seems like I crave more and more of it now a days. I try so hard to only eat it with protein like I normally do, but eve then its still hard to not eat a lot of it. Sometimes I think I am really depressed about having to be a working mom and not a SAHM [stay at home mom] that I have a bad day and I head to some where that sells amazing ice cream and I just cave. Ice Cream is my weak link, I think I might love it more then Cheese Cake.

What to do? I started Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred... that lasted 2 days because Oliver's weird schedule. And the fact that I just want to chill with him and stare at him when I get home from work. I wanted to start walking again every day... Monday I took a walk.. Tuesday I didn't...Today is Wednesday... its 9:40pm... maybe I should put on my sweat shirt and tennis shoes and just go for a quick walk... O no... wait... its moose season and I do not want run into a moose [note to all my wonderful readers...I LOATH MOOSE] they scare the FRACK out of me! Maybe I should just suck it up!

Okay Mia and I are going to go for a short walk/jog... I must make myself... or I am just going to be over weight lady with a PCOS weight lose blog...who doesn't lose weight.

P.S. I love the Olivia won BL11 last night, because I think she can shed a light on the world about PCOS since she has it! PCOS FTW [for the win].